Monday, June 26, 2017

Crazy Train in Candy Land


I was sitting here today, on my normal roller coaster that happens within the two week time frame that I travel.

In an effort to be truthful about my crazy state, the tears came today because a baby carrier (given to me so generously free of charge) didn't fit right.   I knew that it probably wouldn't, but in my mind, it was the final rock that slid out of the dam holding in my emotional (totally NON rational) tears.

I asked myself what I could write about that was logical and wouldn't trigger the avalanche.  Yes, because my mind has officially been lost.

I've been trying to get into the left side of my brain which has a giant emotional log plopped in front of it to block the way.

I've given up logic-ing (verb) today (Kat-dictionary).  Here's a peek into my brain.

I don't want to "do".  There's just too much to do.  Can't I just sit here on the couch frozen?
Please don't make me move?

All the little voices, precious voices, calling me Mommy....asking me questions....my brain can't process.  I cannot brain today.  What? You want a Porsche?  Sure, why not.  Wait...what did I just say yes to?!  Wait! You cannot paint your sister!!!!

Money?  Man, I don't like it.  I don't like to worry about it.  I don't like to pray about it.  I wish I had a money tree...and a chocolate tree.  Yup, that would be AWESOME!!! People are so generous, I'd give them a money tree too. We could create a money forest in Candy Land.  I'm not sure about sharing the chocolate though.

Need to buy, "blah blah blah blah blah blah blah". (Too much effort to type)  

This cat's claws are sharp.  I know it's purring, but I think it has an ulterior motive.  You are leaving me...claws...you no lovz me....claws....



Wonder how my teens are? I hope their mission trip changes hearts for God.  I `wish I could've sent chocolate from my chocolate tree with them.

Oh Alessandra sweetie (my granddaughter), you keep reminding me what love is.  If only every relationship was successful if you rock rock rocked, bounced, rocked swayed them.  I'm guessing my older kids may not respond to that baby brilliance.



I see a suitcase in the entryway.  I'm not ready for that suitcase.  TOO.MUCH.TO.DO.



That's just one brief glimpse of my crazy brain right now.  This is about as "left brain" as I think I will get today.  Yes, the log never moved and I never got in.

So please, just nod and wave at me if you see me planting money (or chocolate)...and remember where I was, because I will need it later.

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Please know that IF for some reason money is donated beyond the stated (needed) amount, it will go toward all adoption costs first, medical needs/bills, and unexpected needs.  Any funds entrusted to us will be used diligently and with prayer.  Our travel has to be guesstimated.  We hope to know our final cost for hotels, adoption related guides/agents, and such this week.  We know we will have what we need.  GOD WILL PROVIDE...and has used many of you to do just that.  We don't know when we will be fully funded, only that GOD WILL PROVIDE!!!!  We are almost there!!!

If you are wanting to get something directly for the girls we "get" that, we talk about that below.  We still have a few needs.  Our first priority is the adoption (getting them home) being fully funded, but there ARE a few necessary things we need to get before travel.  

If you don't know what's going on, we are almost two weeks exactly (Monday) from bringing our two little girls (Grace and Hope) home from a very special large Asian nation.  We saw Grace's picture two years ago for the first time.  TWO YEARS and we are now at the last stage of the process.  In two weeks we (a friend and I) go to bring them home!!!  We are now praying for the last $694.00 we need to bring them home!!!  Just since I posted here yesterday, $100 has come in!!!! Praising God!!! 

If you hear God nudging your heart or speaking to your spirit about helping bring our girls home....

*You can give through our YouCaring site.  A small fee is taken out, but it is linked directly to our adoption specific account at the bank.

*Our PayPal address can be used (using the "Family and Friends" method) to 1thomkat(at)verizon(dot)net.   (No fee is taken out.)

*Feel free to share our need with anyone God leads you to. 

*You can email us at 1thomkat(at)verizon(dot)net and we will share our phone number (if you'd like to chat) or  address.  

*If you have an idea that may help, please feel free to email us as well. We never know how God may work!!!

Whatever avenue you feel comfortable with, thank you.  
Thank you for answering the call that will change the life of two little girls and our family forever.

  Thank you for the sacrifice...just thank you.

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, 
He hears us."
1 John 5:14

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Several have asked about our needs for the girls.  Our biggest need, we were just told, is being provided (a new specific car seat).   We are overwhlemed, yet again, and so very grateful!!!! Most of the needs we have are smaller.  We've been hesitant to share since getting the girls home has to be our first priority We do have a baby registry on Amazon with items needed and though not posting the link on here, you can email us at 1thomkat (at) verizon (dot) net if you would like it . The second biggest item is a second baby carrier (the first came in time, but did not fit right) that we can use in country (not on the registry -----https://mykinderpack.com/collections/standard-size/products/black-koolnit-mesh-standard-kinderpack-baby-carrier?variant=30825777677 with plus size straps).  It's expensive and NOT anywhere the same priority as getting the girls home!!!! NOT EVEN CLOSE!!!!!

We thank you as well for thinking about our girls needs.  Again, our absolute first priority is bringing them home, please understand.  It's NOT that we don't want to share.

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PRAYER REQUESTS: (They are now all immanent...smile)

1. THAT GOD IS GLORIFIED IN EVERY STEP OF THIS ADOPTION.

2.  I feel a deep need to have everyone join us in prayer for the attachment of our girls.  Please pray they have NO attachment issues and attach to us as a family very quickly.  We have been in the adoption world enough to know severe attachment issues exist.  We pray that GRACE and HOPE have NO issues with attachment...NONE (that God prepares them as well).

. 3. For Grace and Hope, that they are healthy, loved on, and protected. Please pray that they dream of us and attach quicker than ANYONE could imagine.

4. PLEASE pray protection against ALL of satan's schemes.  He's been messing with our family and with Amy and her family.  PLEASE pray a strong concrete, cement, gold, silver (smile) wall between our lives and his schemes.

5.  That we have "MORE THAN ENOUGH" for this trip.  PLEASE PRAY FOR $694 in less than THREE WEEKS and please pray for those individuals God is touching to help us financially bring home the girls.

6. Please pray for Thomas and I to see clearly where God is leading and what WE are to do.  

7.  Please pray that I can fully recover and can gain strength before travel comes (both Thomas and I on the last part...physical strength)

8. That my traveling companion (Amy) and I stay well (completely) within country and are safe....not even a nauseous stomach which commonly happens at least once.

 9. That God uses us/speaks through us while we are there, see what we need to see and doing what we need to do.

10. That our families are safe while we are gone and that it is a peaceful (and safe) time for them.

11. For Timothy's complete healing...and that he has walking and running in his future (smile).  That his pain is minimal.

12. Please pray for the Stewart family as they mourn the loss of their father, grandfather, and great grandfather, uncle, brother, and loved one.

TRAVEL SPECIFIC PRAYER

*Please pray that travel is uneventful and NO LUGGAGE/items are lost/stolen.

*Please pray we make the right choices in our last few travel decisions.

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