Thursday, April 4, 2013

The Trip~Thoughts on the Storm

As the time passes and we realize just how close travel is for us, there is such a storm of feeling. 

We started this journey less that six months ago to bring our Jonathan home.  He went home, just not in the way we planned.  I can still feel him, through the gift of a dream God gave me, in my tiny malnourished boy.  My husband can still hear him saying, "Thanks Dad" (through another treasured gift).

It sounds crazy to some, but then gifts of God may not make sense to everyone. 

We weren't planning on adopting soon.  Jael had only been home with us since early January 2012.  Then again, we are never "planning" it.  God shows us our children. 

Once God leads, the choice is whether to follow.  Do we accept this beautiful present...child...from our God and start the battle? Do we ignore God and always know we had a child we aborted from our heart?  No real choice.  That's just the truth. 

Jonathan is a gift, our son, even if he didn't make it into our arms.  I can see some of God's plan, but truthfully...I don't have to know.  I trust God and know He has the best plan EVER.

Ben, Benjamin was another little overlooked one.  He is almost ten.  His picture (taken when he was around six) looks like he's a toddler.  I found an old post last night that said he was ALMOST mobile at six years old.  He may be with the shed boys (see video below).

Truthfully, we prayed for Ben, but that was it.   We just knew he was a "Lost Boy".   We didn't know he was in our plan.  God helped us to SEE.  We saw his beauty.  We saw his blessing.  We see our newest journey.  God drew us to Ben.  God knew our hearts would come out of this with two children, not just one.

This journey is exciting.  Don't get me wrong and think there is not joy in this.  THERE IS JOY.  There is also a storm of feeling. 

There is a longing for Jonathan, as well as Ben.  There will be a sadness being at the institution, not even being able to ask where Jonathan's earthly body lays since we don't want to risk our son who is still on this earth. 

Rocking any boat during adoption is not wise.  They are giving us an honor and a privilege of parenting one of these beautiful Eastern European children.  It is a gift to us, we cannot "demand".

We will see where BOTH of our boys lived before the institution.  There will be sadness mixed with the joy.

In the next week and a half before we (most likely) travel, we will plan (through our current illness), we will continue both mourning and joy, and we will pray....A LOT.  (Prayers for health are greatly appreciated.)

Meanwhile, a sweet new friend shared with us a poem that she rewrote.  We don't know who wrote the original, but (though she used the "frame" of another poem) we don't know who wrote it.  She changed it so much and it is such a beautiful gift to our wounded hearts.  Thank you sweet friend.
     We don't mourn for you, son,
You're in Jesus' arms.
     You're safe from this world now; 
Safe from all harm.

     You live on in our memories,
Our dear, precious boy;
     But we wouldn't ask for you back;
To leave heaven's joy.

     Your strong, healthy body,
Now free from all care,
     Knows the pure bliss of glory,
And God's presence there.

     Perhaps for the first time
You laugh, run, or sing
     You know peace and comfort;
You know Jesus, our King.

   The Christ who is holding you
While we're apart,
      Is the same One who's mending
Our sore, broken hearts.

 We love you; we miss you;  
But we've chosen to rest
     In the purpose God has for us;
His plan is best!     

We'll continue to follow Him
Till our lives have all passed;
     Till the day our whole family
Is together at last!

All prayer requests are listed below.

If you wish to help us in our journey financially please see the information following.

This video shows our reality and below the video (on YouTube) there are ways to give listed.  Also (below the video) is a link to "Mulligan Stew". 

Julia brought Aaron home from the same institute that our boys were and are at (the first of only two to ever exit the institution through adoption).  She is doing a huge fundraiser for several families and many children without a daddy or mommy to call their own. There are over $5000 worth of prizes that will be given away. 

She asked us to be a part of this, even after losing Jonathan and not knowing who our future son might be yet. 

We have $3862 needed to bring Ben home.  Yes, we have a week and a half to do it...but God's got this.

Here is "Mulligan Stew".

Thank you for joining us in this journey.  Please continue to keep us in your prayers.

Prayer Requests:
*Please pray that God sustains Benjamin.  Please pray that He prepares his heart and Ben dreams of us...knowing ways that wouldn't make sense to the world.  Please pray he attaches and learns to love quicker than we can fathom.

*Please pray for comfort as we continue to mourn Jonathan.
*Please pray for the funds to be placed in front of us quickly. 

*PLEASE pray that satan's hands are tied.  He does not want us (or anyone) to enter that village. 

*Please pray that the village gates are “figuratively” thrown down and God’s love floods the streets.

Travel Prayer Requests

*Please pray for us to have a connection with the head of the institution.  Our feelings are raw, but we know that they have limited resources and we pray we can make a difference in the lives of these boys.

*Please pray our children here in the U.S. are protected and safe.  Please pray a wall (cement, barbed wire, of protection around them especially while we are apart.  Please pray for my brother and mom as they care for the kids.

*Please pray the trip is smooth.  There are NO issues.  That every blip, every ironed out before us.

*Please pray BOTH trips are quicker than we fathom...a quickness only God can give.


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