When my mom became pregnant with me, it was not planned. My father had only wanted two children. He had my two crazy awesome older brothers, and he had felt his family was complete.
It was a hard road for my mom.
I was the surprise.
Yet, I was planned by God...a beautiful gift to my parents (or so my mom says...wink).
My father adored me. I was the little girl who had daddy wrapped around her finger (though he would NEVER admit it). It was a path he had not "chosen" to take, but a blessing he received.
I was not a "second choice" (the first choice being two children instead of three). I was a gift.
Jonathan IS our son. His adoption is complete on earth and ultimate journey is complete to Heaven. Our mourning and missing our son is not, but the journey is.
We are now on our SECOND journey (actually 7th...including our Jonathan).
There are NO second choices in our family, just surprises...blessings. Yes, the path to our child was painful, but we trust God as He lays our path before us. One child in Heaven, one soon in our arms. Of course we wish Jonathan AND his brother rested in our arms, but....our Heavenly Father's plans are better than ours and we trust Him.
We mourn the loss of our son and celebrate the gain of another.
Is is our joy (through a journey of tears) to announce our newest son....the son we will adopt upon landing in Eastern Europe.
Benjamin "A_____" (his country name) Jonathan (after his little brother). Those on Reece's Rainbow may know him by another name.
Newest (though not new) Picture (above)
Ben was about 6-7 in the picture to the left.
*Side Note: IF "A____" is his cultural name, then the name above will stay the same. If it is not then it will change to include his correct Eastern European name. Sometimes, on RR, they use pseudonyms.
God's path to Ben was rough, but we received information that made things clear just two mornings ago. Ben was at the same orphanage as Jonathan and then transferred to the same institution.
Our kids view it as the closest thing to a brother Jonathan may have had before them. They may have had cribs close to each other or they may have just been near in passing in the halls, BUT they have been together in a way. There is a connection. Our oldest (Tom), who Jonathan is named after, said (paraphrased),
"If Ben is who Jonathan had, the closest to a brother he may have known and his only connection, then he is our brother too."
That may not make sense to some, but God's Hand was/is obvious. Our children are in pain. We are in pain. Proceeding is painful. We knew we may have a child (or children) that this was too painful for. Our Father's Hand was on this. He showed the children that HE has this. HE has seen it all and still has a path for us. He gave us a connection and a direction.
Ben ("A_____" on Reece's Rainbow) is nine months older than Jonathan and his big brother. He going to be ten in a couple of months. Yes, he is a "Lost Boy". Ben has Down Syndrome and from the few pictures we have...we suspect small. We know very little else. He may be with the general populace or he may be in a laying room. Much of this will depend on if he was mobile before he was transferred. One picture shows he may have been, but we do not know for certain. We just don't know. There are so many unknowns.
We are nervous.
We will be mourning for a long time. We will miss Jonathan until we are united in Heaven.
We welcome Benjamin.
Again, sweet Jonathan...keep an eye on your brother for us.
(Another blog post about our journey will be posted soon-video included)
*Please pray that God sustains Benjamin. Please pray that He prepares his heart and Ben dreams of us...knowing us...in ways that wouldn't make sense to the world. Please pray he attaches and learns to love quicker than we can fathom.
*Please pray for comfort as we continue to mourn Jonathan.
*Please pray for the funds to be placed in front of us quickly.
*PLEASE pray that satan's hands are tied. He does not want us (or anyone) to enter that village.
Travel Prayer Requests
*Please pray for us to have a connection with the head of the institution. Our feelings are raw, but we know that they have limited resources and we pray we can make a difference in the lives of these boys.
*Please pray our children here in the U.S. are protected and safe. Please pray a wall (cement, barbed wire, electric..smile) of protection around them especially while we are apart. Please pray for my brother and mom as they care for the kids.
*Please pray the trip is smooth. There are NO issues. That every blip, every hiccup...is ironed out before us.
*Please pray BOTH trips are quicker than we fathom...a quickness only God can give.
*PLEASE PRAY GOD'S WILL IS DONE*