Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Yesterday and Attachment/Medical Update

Yesterday was a long day, good, but long...ended with allergy yuck and me being a ball of emotional...ummm...lets just say that Inga (my evil alternate personality) popped her head in.

I will say that I enjoy seeing my "girls" though. These are just some of the women that keep me sane (it takes a village).

Before you start praising me for getting out, it had to do with home school (smile), kids and walking (ok, you can praise me there...lol).

I am almost convinced that one of these crazy awesome ladies is my stroller fairy...almost.

I did have to cancel MY play date with another adoptive mom and her kids though. The kids think the date itself is for them, but it's not...it's for me. By the end of the afternoon Inga had popped in and left me blicky.

The babies were so tired on the way home they fell asleep in the car AND stayed asleep when we got home (this NEVER happens). Here's my sleeping couchsicles.





They are too fun, but we still do have "days". Days where I am not as patient and days where they plot from the moment of waking to overtake mommy (wink). Less of those days though.

Attachment is definitely going the right direction. We still struggle with Jael wanting to go to others she doesn't know, but to a lesser degree. She still seeks us for comfort (or to tattle...the twins taught the young padawan well with her limited vocabulary), but progress is being made. She will accept comfort from others, but seems to predominately seek comfort from us.

Gabe is listening a little better and less angry. We do a ton of "Good listening! High five!" and that works well with him. Rachel has turned a corner and (though she still has "two year old" days) is getting to be quite the comedian. That has always been Gabe, but she has definitely joined him.

Life is not easy, I can't say it is...but it's not as hard either. We're still pretty exhausted, which leads to a low immune system and often (for us) illness. Fun fun fun...

I'm TRYING to get back to making phone calls to those who I miss...almost there. I'm TRYING to stop eating out when we are exhausted...almost there. I'm trying (smile)....

I know I haven't mentioned Jael's legs much. She is just so healthy, it hasn't been at the forefront...attachment has. We have an appointment for early April with the specialist that reviewed her file during the process (so that we could know what to expect...our version of the ultrasound to prepare) and will most likely do surgery.

I can't help it though, I look forward to this appointment and I dread it as well. It's the start of a long road, beautiful in the long run and grisly in the short term.

For the first time (yesterday) when I started talking about it with a couple friends, I started crying...out of the blue. It was when I said, "My daughter will lose her legs."

Sigh...my daughter will lose her legs. Her beautiful little feet, though formed differently will no longer be there. She will walk. She will run. Yet in the temporary...it's still hard.

Ok, enough of that. God has been so amazing. Even this last weekend (including Monday), which was really rough...was blessed by God.

We had to use our $100 that I was so relieved to FINALLY be putting back in Savings, replenishing the depleted funds from the adoption. A bill came in, unexpected, that needed to be paid now. I admit discouragement. I do...but a funny thing...God replenished available funds within the day. Someone came up to my husband, a friend, that very day. He handed my husband a gift card for EXACTLY $100. He didn't know what to get us for Jael's home coming.

If your reading this post, friend, thank you. God used you. To the exact amount He used you. So cool....

We're tired, we're humbled, and we're thankful...

God is good.

Oh, and thank you to my "village" for my sanity as well (though they are now laughing at the fact that I think I will ever be sane).


Prayer Requests:*For Jael to continue attachment and to develop a healthy concern over going to people she doesn’t know.
*For clarity and God’s blessing as we are hearing Him speak. For God’s provision as we follow Him.
*For our new normal.
*For health for our entire family.
*For one of our children who is struggling with the world right now. God knows who.
*For us to financially get back on track and the funds for co-op enrollment for this next year to be there when we need it. We need to have co-op next year (verses our normal "would like to") as Jael will most likely have her surgery and my focus will need to be on her much of the time.
"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
to Him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.who by His understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever." Psalm 136:1-9

1 comment:

  1. Love those sleeping beauties! I can really empathize with your feelings about Jael losing her legs; I really struggled with that as well, big time. It is a hard decision to make for another person, but one we were assured was the best for our son - and we knew it in our hearts to be true. STILL SO HARD! We waited until he was home for a year, and by then he could really understand what was happening and was eager to get his "big legs;" let me know if you'd like me to share what I wrote about it back then (I'll try to find it...). I will pray for peace for you as you discuss the process.

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