Friday, March 4, 2011

This Week, Heart Aches, Blessings, and Raising Funds


I vacuumed yesterday morning, which is a monumental thing itself (wink). I also did dishes (shock and awe is appropriate here).

Last night no one would have believed it though. Talk about a weird night.

I went to turn on the vacuum cleaner...nothing. The brush wasn't turning. I, such a mechanical person, took the vacuum cleaner apart. I thought that maybe a gremlin was stuck in it (see, I know all the technical terms). Nothing...no spinning thingy (you can quote me on that).

Okay, I admit it...I gave up. I went to finish the dishes. Turn on the faucet...nothing...not a drop of water. Seriously? Did someone shove Play-do up there? Nothing.

Nothing but a sliced sprayer hose. If that's not what duct tape is for, I don't know what is.

Sigh, I thought I better warn my husband of the impending doom and called him at work.

What is that breathless screeching I hear? Anna (10) and Max (8) had started screaming, "Gabe! Gabe!"

I was scared to turn around and look in the port-a-crib that I had turned my back on for a second. I should've been scared, very scared. Rachel (sigh) had felt the need to be free...of her dirty diaper. Gabe had felt the need to...well...ummm...how to put this...explore his archaeological tendencies. There my son and daughter were...knee deep in it (at least that's what it seemed).

I, one by one, held them as far away from my body as possible and deposited them in an empty bath tub. I then, very literally, closed my eyes and scrubbed.

That, in a nutshell, was how our week went. Not a whole lot of fun, but laughing by the end of it. When the domino's fall, I EVENTUALLY just have to laugh and whisper (as quietly as possible), "Is that all you got?!"

Yes, I'm hoping no one heard me.

It seems that the huge drowning waves I was afraid would hit, so far are little pounding, wear you down, want to pull the covers over your head, waves. They aren't big ones, but like listening to the repeated droning of Barney a faucet dripping.

Yes, I'm tired, but I am also very aware of those that are hurting and struggling at a much higher level.
Little Eden , fighting for her life daily. Rolando and Julia , trapped in Guatemala for five years now as their family wages the fight of their lives to bring them home. A family from Holland, missionaries in Kenya...husband murdered, wife sexually assaulted while their two children were home. A friend's daughter, sweet Kennedy, has seizures of unknown origin. There are more and more...almost too many to mention.

My heart is heavy for these families.

In all this, my heart is also aching for our sweet Jael. Does someone answer her cries at night? Do her caregivers look at her and her sweet legs with love, or neglect? My mommy heart is aching to hold her, but logically knowing it will probably be a year.

We are so thankful God has shown us our daughter, but how I long to have her in my arms. It's amazing how a child I didn't know just a few months ago has become such a intricate part of our lives.

Do you think God must feel this way about us? I do. How He must ache for us to come to Him. What a privilege we have to worship Him.

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Recently, as in the last day or so, I have felt that I need to put a "Donate" button on our blog. Have you ever had that feeling that you were just supposed to do something? I know God has put others on my heart and I know that God has and may put our family on other's hearts.

I feel a lot of peace about our adoption financially, but we will still be at least $10,000 (or more) short after our tax return...for now (smile). Currently we wait for our tax return to come in. When it arrives we will be able to start (on a higher level) this journey to our blessing, Jael.

We had to mail our return in with our proof of finalization of adoption in Ethiopia. While we wait we will work on our home study, but cannot start working on the pile of dossier paperwork until we have our program fee in...$2,600. It's just the beginning and we know God's timing will be just right.

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God's blessing abound, even with the mini waves pounding, because He allows these things (not CAUSES, but allows). We need the pounding to iron out the dings, flaws, and to stretch our spiritual lives...shaping them into vessels that can make this journey with sea worthiness and sturdiness.

Thank you all for joining us through the waves, to the shore we all long to see...with Jesus stretching out His arms waiting to engulf us.

"He replied, 'You of little faith, why are you so afraid?' Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm." Matthew 8:26


Our Personal Prayer Requests

*For the waves rolling after the death of Thomas' step-dad.

*For the waves at my husband's place of business to smooth and calm.

*For everyone involved in our home study to feel confident (beyond reason) in our family being ready and perfect for Jael. That we are approved and it all goes quickly.

*That all paperwork may be quick and without flaw (in only a way the God can do) and both U.S. immigration approves us quickly and the Chinese government.

*For all "hiccups" to be banished and a hedge of protection be surrounding this journey.

*For our tax return and finances to fly that we may get started on our journey at a greater speed and that all finances come together with smoothness and speed.

*Please pray for our daughter across the world who faces each night alone, not knowing a family awaits her. Please pray that she feels God's presence, God's hedge of protection around her, that her heart is prepared and ready for family, and that Jesus fills her heart and helps her to be ready to attach to her family. Also for her biological family and their peace and knowledge of a God that loves them so very much.

*Please pray that God protects us from satan's attacks. When you follow God, satan always attacks.

*Most importantly, that God be brought glory and His will be done in all of this.

March's Extra Adoption Prayer Requests:
* FPlease pray for our home visit and interview with me (around the 25th most likely)
*Please pray for our medicals on the kids(general), Thomas, and I. The kids and Thomas will be quick, but my physical is just before the home study.
*Please pray for our Psychological evaluation: Our agency would like us to do this as an added insurance since the twins came home only 8 months ago AND we have seven children. Not all agencies do this, but ours is extremely diligent. Of course, we don't LOVE it, but we LOVE that our agency is dotting every "i" and crossing every "t".
*Please pray as we apply to Immigration. We need the fingerprint appointment to come quickly, as well as approval.
*Please pray that we receive taxes so that we can pay the program fee and get started on our dossier. We had to mail in our taxes, so it will most likely take longer. That is a concern, but God is bigger that this.

Prayers for Our Brothers and Sisters
If you have a prayer request, I will be trying to place them at the end of EVERY blog. Just comment or email me and I will list them. If you have a private one, just let me know and I will hold it up to God in prayer, but not place it on our blog.

*Please pray for Eden, a little blessing from Ethiopia, who has a life threatening disorder.

*Please pray for Judah, a little one from Ethiopia that is on a medical visa here in the United States. He has hydrocephalus and the doctors are evaluating him for treatment that is not available there. God is working miracles, can we pray for some more?

*Please pray for my friends Michelle and Amber who both have parents struggling with cancer.

*Please pray for Donna and her family as they are starting the adoption process at the same exact time we are and have their preliminary approval as well.

*Please pray for the funds to bring Isaiah and Ruth home in around three short weeks. May funds pour in....

*Rolando and Julia (Guatemala-It has been over five years.), AND Junior and Diamoh (Liberia) to be able to finally come home to their families and that these countries open to legitimate adoptions.

*Renae-For the continued transition of their sweet family. Their daughter joined their family this year and they are starting the process of another amazing journey to Ethiopia!

*Daniel (Liberia) and Jeremiah (Taiwan)- for their continued health issues. God's blessings and Hand on them and their families.

*My friend (unnamed, God knows)... foster son, his family, and all who will make or influence decisions on his behalf that God's will be done in every aspect of his life. Also, currently, for his serious health issues.

*For Eliz and their family as they bring home five beautiful blessings with Down Syndrome.

*Please pray for discernment and clarity for Gena and her family as they seek God's will about a future adoption. Also, please pray for their teen son to come to know Christ.

2 comments:

  1. Sometimes you have to laugh or cry- choose laughing.....it keeps you more sane :) Praying my friend!

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  2. I love your crazy life, it makes mine look so much more "normal", cause it mirrors yours basically(you'll have to go back and read about my 3-year old pooping in the litter box....yes, you read that right)!!!! Praying for all your requests...would you pray for Ethiopia...the MOWA is supposedly deciding to only present 5 cases per day(used to be 40-50) to the judge...this could make ET NOT an option for us or anyone else! It would hold up families for over a year who are in the process...trying not to panic, but totally scared that this country is going the way of Guatemala, and Haiti, and......:(

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In the joy of following our Heavenly Father, we sometimes choose to proceed with a whisper, a verse, or a downright shove...no matter how we follow Him, the momentum that follows is like nothing we've ever experienced before.

Join the momentum...it is a beautiful place to be. It's not always easy, but then the best things never are.

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