Following God is a stunning path to travel.
That has been the amazing and crazy road we have been on. We always try to follow God, but He had some very clear lessons to share with us recently.
I promised to share with you, when I could, what one of our prayer requests meant.
You may remember this...
"My husband and I, right now, are asking for a direct answer from God. We are asking for something so clear that neither of us can miss it. This is a very specific situation. We don't feel we're supposed to share all the details yet. Depending on the answer, it may change more than just our lives. If you have a moment (or many :)), can you pray with us. Can you pray for direct guidance and God's provision (there is a serious financial aspect involved too), that we may clearly see God's answer, have complete peace, and be able to act immediately."
You see, God had shown us a precious special needs little girl in China. She is beautiful and we were asking God if she was our daughter. Never did God say, "She is your child." clearly (as He had in the past).
After being led to several verses, all that was heard was that we needed to proceed.
This was daunting in itself. I'm ashamed to say that, though there was excitement and honor, there was also fear. I have never been a very fearful person. I know God will provide a way for whatever He asks. When I ask for prayers, it's not out of fear, but out of exhaustion and knowing just how powerful prayers are.
I had this crazy fear of having to figure out finances again. Is that sad or what? Fundraising/tax return/selling things brought our sweet little ones home. It was exhausting, not knowing where it would come from, though.
That thought process in itself was wrong. Fundraising/tax returns/and selling things did NOT bring our babies home, God did. We were willing and going to proceed, but with fear and some panicked feelings.
We eventually got around to seeing exactly what our fears were saying though. We gave it to God and, while praying, began to tentatively progress (still not knowing if this was our daughter).
We requested her file and found (within a day) that she had just been "locked in" by another family. We are so happy and there is not an ounce of regret. SHE IS GOING TO HAVE A FAMILY!!! This was first and foremost our prayer.
God had not told us specifically that she was our daughter, just to proceed.
Why would He do that?
He did that for several reasons we believe.
*We needed to get past our fears and give it to HIM, realizing there is NO need to proceed with fear...ever.
*We needed to be willing to obey. It was kind of an Abraham/Isaac moment. We needed to be willing....
*We needed to prepare for God to show us another of our blessings.
This has been a crazy roller coaster. I wasn't prepared for it so soon after we brought our babies home.
Now. I. Am.....or at least I'm getting there.
I must admit that I do want to be blessed with more children. My heart is especially with some of the special needs children out there.
You know what the hard part of this is for me? The waiting is a killer. The not knowing exactly where or when God will lead us. Will He lead us to another child?
So our prayer request has now changed.
We pray that God shows us our next child. We pray that financially things will fall into place to be able to adopt so that we will not have to wait on any funds (at least initially). We pray for health as we plan for the future. We pray for our future children, our current blessings, and our family...that they may be loved and prepared for another amazing blessing. Especially we pray that whatever happens, it is to God's glory and is HIS will.
So though my mommy arms are very full, I still feel a little sad that they won't be able to comfort another of the orphaned little ones soon and that we won't be expanding our family with the same immediacy. We are assured that God can and does do amazing things AND if it is to His glory, that would be awesome.
We know this is all in God's plan.
Tonight, as we sat down for our family devotional, the Bible was already open. I thought my husband had picked out the verses and just wanted me to read it tonight. When I asked him, he said that he thought I had picked them out. Here is what we read...
"As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, 'I will follow you wherever you go.' Jesus replied, 'Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.' He said to another man, 'Follow me.' But he replied, 'Lord, first let me go and bury my father.' Jesus said to him, 'Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God.' Still another said, 'I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say goodbye to my family.' Jesus replied, 'No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.'” Luke 9:57-62
No looking back.
That's it friends, that's what's been going on here. A little insanity, a little love, some fear and A TON OF FOLLOWING GOD.
Thank you for your prayers as we continue down this very cool road.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
*Rolando and Julia (Guatemala-It has been over five years.), AND Junior and Diamoh (Liberia) to be able to finally come home to their families and that these countries open to legitimate adoptions.
*Renae-For the continued transition of their sweet family. Their daughter joined their family this year!
*Daniel (Liberia) and Jeremiah (Taiwan)- for their continued health issues. God's blessings and Hand on them and their families.
*Our friend's (unnamed, God knows) foster son, his family, and all who will make or influence decisions on his behalf that God's will be done in every aspect of his life.
*Eliz and her family-Blessings of speed of process and safety for her five fragile sons with Down Syndrome as they wait to bring them home.
Personal Prayer Requests:
*We pray that God shows us our next child. We pray that financially things will fall into place to be able to adopt so that we will not have to wait on any funds (at least initially). We pray for health as we plan for the future. We pray for our future children, our current blessings, and our family...that they may be loved and prepared for another amazing blessing. Especially we pray that whatever happens, it is to God's glory and is HIS will.
*We also ask that you join us in prayer for wisdom and guidance (that we can bring God the most glory) in the career field. We're limited in what we can share, but feel pressed on to pray about both these prayer requests and God knows exactly what we're asking.
*Last, we ask that you pray protection against satan's barbs. Thank you.