Thursday, March 18, 2010

What it Must Have Been Like...Missing My Babies


Is it weakness to say how there's a hole, an empty gaping void, in your heart? Is it weakness to be in the same role as many and long to hold your children, just waiting for "the date" of court or travel? It is weakness, but a weakness that I celebrate. It's a weakness that says our hearts are tender and full of the love that God created us for.

I look at the longing in others and completely understand. I've been there. I am there. I am not even there for the agonizing long waits (years even) that some wait after seeing their child's picture. Our wait has been relatively short thus far. Yet...I still woke up this morning sad, missing my babies and longing to hold them.

Yet, in my "void" I've come to a clearer realization of God and Christ's relationship and how it must have felt being absent from a part of you. Yes, I realize God is all knowing and all seeing, yet....

He gave His Son, placed Him on this earth. His son who was dwelling with Him, was placed on this earth in an imperfect world. I can't imagine, also knowing what was going to occur, what that felt like.

If imagine my children across the world suffering, let alone in a degrading and painful way, my heart is ripped out.

What Jesus must have felt. His Father, who He sat with in perfection, sent Him to that same imperfect world. He had to feel such longing to be with His Father. He had seen His face, but...

I know the void must be there, even in little ones...our babies, that a parent is meant to fill. A longing to be loved, longing to be held and cherished.

I'm glad that God gives me this opportunity. The opportunity for my heart to ache. The opportunity to be sad. I rejoice in this, because you know...if I can understand just a little bit more of what God did for me....I will rejoice.

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:3-5

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CONDENSED and VERY SPECIFIC PRAYER REQUEST LIST

1. We are praying for the lawyer and his conviction when He sees our children's faces.
2. We are praying for paperwork to be perfect and present.
3. We are praying for a quick court date.
4. We are praying for those relinquishing...for their spirit, hope, God's peace. We are also praying they are able to be present with the correct identification.
5. We are praying for the judge and that he sees the need to pass us the first time we come to court and the papers are sped to the embassy where we receive a very quick embassy date.
6. We are praying that we are able to travel in April, not for convenience, but to know our children are safe during elections in Ethiopia and to have confidence they are where they are supposed to be...forever (as long as God loans our children to us on this earth). We know God's timing is WAY better than ours though.
7. Most importantly we are praying that our twins are warm, comforted, loved, held, that angels are surrounding them, that God's hand is upon them...and the list goes on and on.
8. We are also praying that God blesses us financially and the funds flood in for travel.
9. Lastly, please pray for peace for our hearts as we wait (it's not easy after seeing their faces :)).

PRAYERS FOR OTHERS
Please continue to pray for a few others that, in their situations, governments (and mountains) need to move to bring their children home.
Please pray for Daniel, Junior and Diamoh (Liberia).
Please pray for Olivia Mame (Ethiopia)
Please pray for Rolando and Julia (Guatemala)

Please pray for my sweet friend (God knows her name) whose domestic adoption failed yesterday. Please pray for comfort for the family.

Please pray for "The Covering" in Sierra Leone. Please pray they get the funds, supplies, and sponsorships needed to support these wonderful blessings.

Please pray for "Motherly Care" in Kenya as they struggle. Please pray sponsorship is found for this orphanage.

Please also pray for healing for three little girls with Leukemia, Abby, Tatum, and Elke. Abby has has been in this battle and is fighting as we speak. Her courage has been amazing. You can find out about Abby by clicking on the button on the right side of our blog

1 comment:

  1. YES! You are so right, and you blessed me today. What must it have been like for God to send His Son to this world of pain and death?!

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