Friday, April 24, 2015

The Van (Deep Breath)-He is Mighty to Save

I'm holding onto the phrase, "Do what is in front of you."

I will do that.  I have complete confidence in God that He will provide.

My human nature is wanting to go all fetal position though.

This is what my head is saying....

"Our van has been totaled.  The amount will not buy a new used van.  We are in the middle of an adoption that has $20,000 or so to complete. How can we do this?  How?  I know God led us.  I know HE provides.  How?" Sniff

Yet, Our Heavenly Father will make a way.  HE PROVIDES!  I want this blog post alone to be a testimony to that.

I don't know how, but we will have another vehicle and Timothy will come home.

I have 100% confidence (even through the occasional fetal position or emotional rollercoaster).


Thursday, April 23, 2015

Go Ahead and Yell It!

I can hear it...the whisper.

"You're not good enough."

You've heard it to, haven't you?

"Really? You think God would talk to YOU?!!!"

You're not good enough.

"Look, nobody is really listening to you.  You're stupid.  Your idea was stupid."

You're not good enough.

"Don't share that! No one wants to hear your 'issues'."

You're not good enough.

"You snapped at the kids today...again.  Really?!!! What a child of God you are!!! You think God will claim you??"

You're not good enough.

"Look at your past.  Hasn't enough destruction been passed around?  Haven't you messed up enough?"

You're not good enough.

"You forgot an assignment at school...again?!  You are so stupid."

You're not good enough.

"You can't keep today together, what does that say about tomorrow?  You can't do this!!"

You're not good enough.

"It's all going to fall apart because YOU messed up."

You're not good enough.

"You cannot even wear clean clothes to an important interview because YOU forgot to wash them." (That one MAY be directed at me.)

You're not good enough

Oh dear friends, I am so sick of the lies being yelled (and whispered) in my (and your) ears.  They are all about distraction from truth.  They are all destructive (keeping the focus off where it should be) instead of reconstructive (click highlighted area for link).  They are all about stopping us from moving forward.

He's the master of lies.

"He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies." John 8:44

The master of lies is good at this.  Ya, he's been around awhile.

It started in the Garden Eden.

You're not good enough.

What do you think was behind the desire to eat fruit that was forbidden?  My thought ( just my thought and NOT the Word of God) is a little of that.... a little of the familiar whispering MAY have been going on as well.

You're not good enough.

I continued with Cain and Abel...the first murder.

Can't you almost hear the whisper? Instead of allowing God's reconstruction... just maybe...

You're not good enough.

The whisper has been coming throughout the centuries and left havoc and destruction in it's wake.

I'm weary, tired, and a little battered....


I'm tired of the lies! I'm so stinking sick of the manipulation!  I'm tired of him picking on my friends and those I love!


I have decided to come here this morning to remind you where your identity is.


He determines your value....not you...and NOT anyone else.

"Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:16

God and ONLY God has that right.

You are good enough because GOD HAS MADE YOU GOOD ENOUGH.

You are good enough for God to offer you grace for your humanity.

 "This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile,  for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,  and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." Romans 3:22-24 

You are good enough for Him to send His Son for YOU.

"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die.  But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:6-8

You are good enough for Him to use you...yes, even the weak things of the world at times.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:8-9

Your past does NOT define you.  You cannot change it.  He has made YOU good enough to stand up after you fall (with HIS help), brush yourself off....and say....

"You lose evil one!  You know it! Go away.  God wins!  He kicks your butt!  Get out of my head.  Get out of my life.  I AM MADE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!  Failure does not define me, God does! YOU ARE THE FAILURE EVIL ONE!  YOU LOSE!"

(Yell it! Go ahead!)

Today (though not my usual suggestion), may I suggest that you get ticked off?!  Can I suggest that you get MAD when you hear that whisper?!  That you kick those lies to the curb?!

You are defined by our GOD!!! (Not by the Loser...with a capital "L".  I may not capitalize anything referring to satan because he gets NO respect here...but I will gladly capitalize that.)

May you remember today that GOD LOVES YOU.  GOD WINS.  He may share some hard stuff to reconstruct you, but it's only to create an amazing and stronger CHILD OF GOD.

"And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:5

"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?  He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?  Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[b]
 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.  For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[c] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,  neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:31-39

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

"Let's see what God Does with This"~The Wild and Weird Day

It's not so bad really.

Yesterday was WEIRD though.

I think I'm going to share the whole story.  It was so way out of my realm that I'm wondering your thoughts.

(If you could see me, I have my head cocked to one side, a perplexed look on my face.)


(Do you ever have a feeling there was a reason things happen, but you may never know why?  Ya, that was yesterday.)

Rewind to Monday afternoon.

I got a call that really threw me off.  It was from a local television station that was pitching a story on our family.  They wanted to film the next day.  Really? Ummmm....okay...

I'm afraid I sounded less than enthused.  (I apologize if you're reading this. I just didn't see it coming.)

Side note: Apparently my brother had written them awhile ago and mentioned it to me.  The flake I am at times blew it off and had no memory of it.  It was SO kind of him.

Basically, I blink, I forget....

So after our whirlwind clean (we had construction going on...explained below), they called on Tuesday. They shared that too many other stories took priority that day and had crowded the story on our family out.  Ummm...okay, it was all good.  We are just a family.  There was a little relief truthfully.  I'm a speaking and sharing type person, but I had never considered anything like that  before.

One of Thomas' closest friends came over and 
fixed some stuff.  He's cool like that.

So, instead we decided to have the field trip to see the movie Cinderella (that we initially had planned for that day).  We have the advantage of getting in free with a older child working there.

I realized then that I had skipped....well, three meals.  (That NEVER happens!!!  Food and I are a little too intimate.)  I went and grabbed food out (which isn't common either) and headed to the theater.

Driving down a local highway, I was in the far left of three lanes.  A small car three cars ahead came to a complete stop (planning to do a U-Turn).  It didn't pull to the left the way your supposed to, but pulled a brain hiccup and just stopped.  The car behind him slammed on their brakes and barely missed this car.  The one behind him slammed on his brakes and barely missed the car in front of him.  Then there was me.... in the Beast.  I slammed on my brakes, but the Beast is REALLY heavy...especially filled with eight passengers.  I couldn't stop soon enough.  The two men in front of me (one of them the driver of the car the Beast crashed into) were older, very kind men.  They were trying to get the license plate of the young man who initially stopped (as he had left the scene as fast as he could when he saw he caused an accident). They were more concerned about the kids and I (and mad at the one who stopped) than upset at me in any way.  Oh, I felt so bad...horrid guilt.  I wasn't following close.  I left space.  Apparently it wasn't enough for the Beast though.

We find out (most likely tomorrow) if it is totaled.  Do I worry? Concerned maybe (cost, insurance) , but I know God has a plan.

The officers were wonderful, and the fire department even more so.  They got me laughing as they secretly patted a "Jr. Fire Dept." badge over the police officer's badge (without his knowledge).  Their joking got me smiling.

They forgave our messy car.

We all were in a little shock.  We hit hard, but the airbags did not deploy.  The seat belt hurt Anna.  Max hit his shoulder.  I have a little whiplash and backache.  None of these (as of yet) has required a doctor.  We are forever thankful this wasn't worse.

Then the comments came....

They made me smile...

"Ohhh my goodness Kat !! You must be in the middle of an adoption!! Love you sweetie!!"

"Oh my Kat!! must be adopting again...!"

"OH MY GOODNESS! So glad you are all ok!!! Now you know you are meant to adopt, since satan is pulling out the big ones. Praying protection and peace and calm and provision for all of you!"

"Why am I not surprised?! Time for the attacks to begin. I'm thankful that you are all ok and also praying for you."

There were many other kind words (that I cherished SO MUCH), but the adoption aspect hadn't occurred to me.

You see, satan hates adoption and is NOTORIOUS at hitting you (especially financially) during the process (or any process of following God).  We've experienced this SEVEN times...yet (like birth pains) I forgot.  I forgot the attacks, the fires, the break in, foundation exploding, and holes in the roof.  I had forgotten the flooding toilets, broken cars, and unexpected bills.  I had forgotten the termites, constant picking, and hitting many who weren't prayed over.

I had forgotten the master of lies plays dirty.

He hates adoption.  The orphan is exactly where he wants them.  Often no one praying for them, teaching them their worth, and teaching them the love of the MIGHTY ONE.  They are more vulnerable and often easier to manipulate.  

This is why you may hear so much about spiritual warfare in adoption.  

It's a battle worth fighting.

Yet, my absolute favorite comment was from a dear to my heart friend.  One of those people I truly look up to.

"Thank God you are all okay! Let's see what God does with this."

"Let's see what God does with this."

I had also forgot the most important truth.  God has always used big things that occur in our lives.  He has always brought blessings out of rough stuff.  He has always brought joy out of the shock.

"Let's see what God does with this."

So tomorrow our kids will pile into two cars (since our insurance doesn't cover a car big enough for our crazy brood) and go to their interviews with our social worker.

We will look at the hard things that satan throws in our path...the unexpected...the tear inducing...the perplexing things...and we will see what God does with this.

So I'm a little perplexed, my head is tilted to one side, but then I don't always remember to put my God glasses on....looking on life with an eternal perspective.

Join me in an eternal perspective friends and....

"Let's see what God does with this."


Please forgive any grammar mistakes as my brain is still not 100% since yesterday.


Adoption Prayer....
1. Please pray we bring glory to God through this journey.
2. Please continue to pray for protection over Timothy, our family, and anyone involved in this process (physical, emotional, and spiritual).
3. Please continue to pray that there are no hiccups. That paperwork and approvals fly quicker than imagined.
4. Please continue to pray for provision. We still have quite a ways to financially go.
Specific Prayer...
1. Please pray the children's interviews go wonderfully tomorrow (Thursday).
2. That our home study is without hiccup.
3. That next weeks final home study goes great!

Tuesday, April 21, 2015


I am now home after an accident which we believe totaled the van. We are all okay (the seven youngest and I), with several of us sore. We were on a local Hwy and a car stopped in the road to make a U-turn (left the scene of the accident). The car behind it stopped barely and then the car behind him. I couldn't stop with the weight of the van. Blessings...everyone is okay, just a little shaken up. Hard stuff (which big picture isn't that hard)...van is totaled and because I couldn't stop I'm considered at fault.  I seem like I'm just one giant water faucet right now. We appreciate prayers and PRAISE that our babies are okay. 

God will provide here as well.  Thank you for covering us!

Saturday, April 18, 2015

It's How We Roll

I don't know how it happens, I really don't.

It started with a kitten.  We promised the kids we would always have at least one female and one male cat (and our sweet Sadie had passed away).

Meet Miss Chiph 
(Say it really fast.)

Then Anna's Leopard Gecko's laid eggs.  Yes, that was plural...BOTH FEMALES.

Yes, she has an incubator...with four eggs in it.

A couple of days ago our mama Cardinal disappeared.  We think a neighborhood cat that comes into our yard got her.  We waited and waited...until we couldn't wait anymore.  Her babies hatched and no mama Cardinal (or Daddy) for almost two days and the babies didn't look like they'd make it. (We didn't touch them or even haunt the nest.  We watched from a distance.)

Sigh...ya, you guessed it.

We're keeping them just until they get a tad bit stronger and can travel to a bird sanctuary.  Right now they wouldn't make it.  It's a good learning experience for the kids anyway.  I didn't realize that sleep deprivation wasn't just created by baby humans.

So Spring, or insanity, has sprung around our house.

I guess that's just how we roll.

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